The Midnight Poetry

 

I just want someone to explain to me why it makes sense for our government to cut funding that feeds babies, toddlers and new Mom's and it is acceptable to keep funding wars in other countries? We have thousands of young men and women in foreign countries fighting for their rights as well as ours and yet their families are suffering back here in the States. To give money to countries that have killed thousands of their own as well as hundreds of thousands of ours is an insult to every hard working American and American soldiers.

Every day we have thousands of illegal immigrants crossing our borders, and our government does nothing tangible to stop them. Our state and county welfare systems Chidren's Service agencies and food pantries are on overload trying to help these illegal immigrants and naturalized citizens pay the price with raised taxes and lost revenues because illegals work cheap.

Because our government (men and women that WE elected) fail to recognize that America is suffering... Hundreds of thousands are losing jobs every day and with that comes losing their credit, their cars and their homes. More and more Americans are one paycheck away from losing everything that they and generations before them have worked and died for.

 

I tried, I truly did...

I promised myself that today, I was going to be a kinder, gentler,loving person. Some one told me that I needed to soften up, that I came across as "mean" I said to myself"  Maggie, smile. think only kind thoughts." Well, that lasted, oh, I would say an hour maybe two, before some one ticked me off and let's face it, I am what I am. I know this and truthfully, I don't want to change. I don't sugar coat the truth and I don't enable other peoples BS. I GIVE 115% to my job,  I am a good wife, a good mother and according to my grandchildren, I'm pretty good at that too. I believe in God, I believe in Santa Claus. I believe in fairies, and most of all, I believe in magic... The magic that starts with a baby's smile, the magic that starts to simmer when my husband kisses me as he passes by... The magic of love.... So, in reality, I made up my mind today, that you either take me as I am or you don't....

Just this morning ...

  as I was having my coffee and talking myself into getting ready for another thankless day, it occured to me that I was doing a disservice to myself as well as those I work with. I have forgotten how to have fun, I had lost my joy with life in general. Now, I realize that when you lose a parent that it is normal to feel lost and unanchored.   I have read all of the lastest books on grieving and personal loss and I can honestly say....

  not one of them helped me.  I tried to remember all of the good things, just like Mom would have wanted but nothing seemed to help, I lost two more family members during the summer, my cousin Gail, succumbed to cancer and my cousin Amy passed due to a stroke. It took the birth of my great grandson (I am a very young great grandma!), Jesse, to bring a spark back into my heart. He brings me such joy! Just  a smile and I melt. 

  as I sat drinking my coffee, i begin to think about something my friend and director, Fran once said to me... We raise our children to be without us one day, and it made me realize that this was exactly what Mom had done. She gave me a strong foundation to build on and let me make my own choices, I realized that I was making myself unhappy! I choose when to be happy, no one else can do it for me and when I make me unhappy, chances are I am making you, my friends and family, unhappy so....

Just this morning.....

 I took the time to read a Bible verse, drank two cups of coffee, listened to my favorite song while getting dressed and smiled at my grouchy next door neighbor!

Maggie